There was a time when I thought I had it all figured out. I imagined the woman I would grow into with absolute certainty—graceful, confident, and impeccably put together. But life has a funny way of unraveling even the most carefully spun dreams.
Looking back, I can’t say I’m the girl I used to be. That version of me was naïve, wide-eyed, and full of expectations about how the world should work. She was a dreamer, but she didn’t fully understand what it meant to live, to endure, and to truly grow.
Nor am I the woman I once envisioned for myself. That version of me felt unattainable, like a stranger living in a picture-perfect life I had constructed in my mind. She was flawless, always in control, and, quite frankly, a little too polished to be real.
The truth is, I’ve become something different entirely—something I never could have planned for. And I’ve come to realize that’s okay.
I’m not as "together" as I thought I would be. My life is messy, my path unconventional, and my scars run deep. But in this mess, I’ve found a sense of completeness I never expected. The storms I’ve weathered have softened me in ways I can’t fully explain. They’ve stripped away my illusions of perfection and taught me to find beauty in imperfection instead.
I’ve learned to be more cautious with my heart—not in a way tthat completely walls me off from the world, but in a way that honors my worth and keeps me safe. I’ve stopped giving away pieces of myself to those who don’t see my value, and that in itself has been a revelation.
Now, I stand here unapologetic. Unapologetic for my mistakes, my flaws, and my journey. I embrace every crack, every scar, and every stumble because they’ve shaped me into someone real—someone who feels deeply and loves fully but no longer recklessly.
This is me, in all my tarnished glory. And you know what? I wouldn’t trade it for the girl I used to be or the woman I once dreamed of becoming. Because who I am now—this version of me—is stronger, wiser, and more complete than I could have ever imagined.
So, if you’re looking at your own life and feeling like you’ve fallen short of who you thought you’d become, take a moment to really see yourself. Not who you were or who you wanted to be, but who you are right now. There’s power in owning your journey, in embracing the mess and finding beauty in what you’ve built from it.
Because the truth is, who you are now might just be more incredible than anything you ever dreamed of.
🫰🫂🫖 - JustRealTea
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